Oh my God! You can't stop there. Make it okay, woman! *shakes fist*
This chapter just totally illustrates where so many things in my life are right now. That sense of accidentally self-imposed isolation. That regret. That insistence to myself that I had to protect myself in order to make it this far, and protection means distance. That fear, that intense fear of intimacy and even more of being left.
And he doesn't know how to change it. He's so full of willingness to try and be a better, healthier person, but he just doesn't know where to start. God, I can relate. And you wonder if he'd be able to, if he knew what to do, or if his fear would, in the end, paralyze him. I think he could do it though. I think he wants it badly enough.
And what a monster his Mother is! She should be chopped into little pieces and fed to wild dogs! Just pure evil. Wanting to hurt people for the pure pleasure of it and not caring about anyone else's emotions but her own. Devil Woman! I almost started shouting at the computer screen when she was telling Lij that she knew Orlando would leave him. BITCH!
Wow...you totally have me. My emotions are all tied up in your characters and plot. Great writing! I let out a happy little sigh when i saw that there was more of this posted. :) Yay for more!!!
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This chapter just totally illustrates where so many things in my life are right now. That sense of accidentally self-imposed isolation. That regret. That insistence to myself that I had to protect myself in order to make it this far, and protection means distance. That fear, that intense fear of intimacy and even more of being left.
And he doesn't know how to change it. He's so full of willingness to try and be a better, healthier person, but he just doesn't know where to start. God, I can relate. And you wonder if he'd be able to, if he knew what to do, or if his fear would, in the end, paralyze him. I think he could do it though. I think he wants it badly enough.
And what a monster his Mother is! She should be chopped into little pieces and fed to wild dogs! Just pure evil. Wanting to hurt people for the pure pleasure of it and not caring about anyone else's emotions but her own. Devil Woman! I almost started shouting at the computer screen when she was telling Lij that she knew Orlando would leave him. BITCH!
Wow...you totally have me. My emotions are all tied up in your characters and plot. Great writing! I let out a happy little sigh when i saw that there was more of this posted. :) Yay for more!!!